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My Son Isn’t A Political Debate

On 22nd Jul 2026 By Absurd RhioIn lgbtqia, mental health4 Comments

This is one of the hardest posts I've ever written. It's about my son, the Supreme Court ruling, and why, as a cis woman, I don't feel more protected by it. Most of all, it's about the human cost of turning people's lives into political debate.

I Asked the Universe for My Prescription. It Said NO.

On 13th Jul 202613th Jul 2026 By Absurd RhioIn bipolar, cluster headaches, mental health, Uncategorized, Weekly Updates5 Comments

A simple trip to collect my medication somehow turned into a desert expedition, a nostalgic taxi ride to 2010, a battle with Boots, a cluster headache, an invasion of bush crickets and, somehow, two jars of reduced SunPat peanut butter. Honestly, the universe just wasn’t on my side that day.

The House Flipper Bedroom That Became Real

On 9th Jul 2026 By Absurd RhioIn Weekly Updates4 Comments

After falling in love with a bedroom I’d designed in House Flipper, my son wanted the bed from it. What followed was a day of heavy lifting, confusing instructions, cardboard battles, and the realisation that virtual DIY is considerably easier than the real thing.

The Impulsive Need to Destroy A Sofa

On 6th Jul 2026 By Absurd RhioIn Weekly Updates6 Comments

On Tuesday, all I had to do was go to the dentist. Instead, I got caught in a torrential downpour, emergency-shopped for a jacket, bought suspiciously specific DIY tools, declared war on a sofa, accidentally created a rage room, cleaned up a communal bin room disaster, and somehow still thought that was normal.

This Is Not Just Any Grief, It’s Marks and Spencer Grief.

On 22nd Jun 2026 By Absurd RhioIn Grief Journey, mental health, Recovery Updates1 Comment

When Marks & Spencer announced it was closing, I was surprised by how upset I felt. This isn’t really a story about a supermarket. It’s a story about friendship, Christmas sandwich competitions, Yorkshire puddings, grief, and how sometimes we leave pieces of the people we love in unexpected places.

Little Lights in the Hole!

On 21st May 2026 By Absurd RhioIn Little lights in the dark, Recovery Updates, Weekly Updates5 Comments

Still deep in the hole, I’ve been trying to find little lights in the dark anyway. Pigeons by the river, audiobooks that reignited my love of science fiction, Project Hail Mary nights with my son, and tiny moments of peace that didn’t cure me, but reminded me there’s still warmth outside the fear.

The Day Nothing Felt Ordinary

On 9th May 2026 By Absurd RhioIn Recovery Updates, Weekly Updates11 Comments

Sometimes when I wake up, my anxiety wakes up first. Before I’ve even opened my eyes my brain is already spiralling about weight, Welsh elections, quantum mechanics and whether Biscoff spread contains enough energy to power a small nation. By the end of the day, seagulls, Starbucks and my son helped ground me again.

A Good Day in Cardiff, Despite Everything.

On 9th Apr 2026 By Absurd RhioIn cluster headaches, mental health, Uncategorized4 Comments

I was in so much pain, exhausted, and honestly bored of it all. But I still went to Cardiff with my son anyway. It wasn’t easy, and I wasn’t fully present, but it was real. Sometimes life doesn’t hand you a good day. Sometimes you have to make one, even through struggle.

A Pandora’s Vault of a Week

On 30th Mar 2026 By Absurd RhioIn Recovery Updates, Weekly Updates3 Comments

It’s been a week of exhaustion, strange half-awake thoughts, and doing life anyway. Somewhere between a musical electrician, a trolley upgrade, and a film I didn’t expect to love, things still happened. Not how I planned, not how I wanted - but I somehow survived and lived anyway.

Corrupted Copilot vs. Pistachio Foam and Women’s Clothes Sizes.

On 28th Feb 2026 By Absurd RhioIn Recovery UpdatesLeave a comment

On Tuesday, I chose the leggings. I chose the pistachio foam. I chose the surplus. My body is loud, the systems louder, but we carried each other anyway. Temporary clothes, temporary afflictions. The commitment however is permanent. Tuesday stood on its own.

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