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Day 29 – The Days Off I Was Forced To Take

On 28th May 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Recovery Updates1 Comment

Burnt out from recovery, grief, and just existing, I hit a wall - and my body hit back. This is the day I didn’t plan to rest, but had to. From chaos drawers and cereal trails to wax melts and Super Salads, this was the day off I was forced to take.

The Joy Of Jellycats – Daily Prompt

On 24th May 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Daily Prompt, plushiesLeave a comment

Recovery didn’t bring joy rushing back. It brought pain. Grief. The feelings I ran from. But I keep going- eating, walking, packing a Jellycat - because I want to be here when joy returns. Not the muted kind, but real joy. The kind that stays. The kind that wraps me in fluffiness.

A Game That Did More Than Lift My Spirits – Spirit City Lofi Sessions

On 21st May 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Gaming, Recovery UpdatesLeave a comment

Spirit City gave me something I didn’t know I needed - a quiet space where my digital self could sit, eat, cry, and heal beside me. It’s not just a game. It’s a soft place to land when the world is too loud. Recovery, raccoons, and rain sounds included.

The Funhouse Mirror in My Bathroom

On 17th May 2025 By Absurd RhioIn eating disorder, Recovery Updates1 Comment

I thought the bath would help. Galaxy glitter, soft water, space to breathe. Instead, the mirror warped, my legs felt like cement, and I didn’t recognise myself. Recovery is a circus, and this was the funhouse mirror moment. But I got out. I got dressed. I drank the macchiato.

Somewhere Over the Enfys – The Arrival Of A Liberty Jellycat Bear

On 11th May 2025 By Absurd RhioIn plushies2 Comments

During one of the hardest weeks of my life, my son handed me a purple Liberty bag with a Jellycat bear inside. This is the story of Enfys — a rainbow in bear form — and how she reminded me I’m loved, even when I can’t feel it.

Collapsing the Wave Function – Choosing Recovery For Real This Time

On 30th Apr 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Recovery Updates2 Comments

This isn't a choice, it's a vow. I'm not doing this because it's easy or aesthetic - I'm doing it because I refuse to stay lost. Anorexia recovery is hell. It always was. But I'm done putting my toe in the water. I'm swearing to fight for myself. No illusions. Lets jump in head first.

Recovery With the Nostalgia of Tea and Biscuits at My Nan’s House.

On 23rd Apr 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Recovery Updates, trauma6 Comments

I’m trying to recover from my anorexia relapse. For this week’s challenge, I’m increasing my intake with tea and biscuits—using the only safe food memories I have from childhood to help me. Alongside the nostalgia and my favourite custard creams, Biscoff the bear is here with his usual fluffy emotional support.

From Cortisol Mornings to Cotton Cord Evenings – Biscoff Is No Longer Naked!

On 18th Apr 2025 By Absurd RhioIn plushies, Weekly Updates8 Comments

Today was meant to be restful, but my brain woke me up yelling “BOOTS!” like it was a threat. I got my meds, made my bear a bowtie, and ignored all signs of needing to lie down. A cortisol-fuelled quest, featuring pigeons, macramé, and one very overdressed bear.

More Little Lights in the Dark – My Son, Starbucks, and Self Care Sunday.

On 14th Apr 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Little lights in the dark2 Comments

This week was hard — full of cluster headaches, grief, and emotional crashes. But in the middle of all that were tiny moments that helped me stay: coffee with my son, a moonstone necklace, a bear in a towel, and a bath that looked like the universe. Little lights in the dark.

The Night We Ate – My Son Softens The Hard Edges of My Day.

On 7th Apr 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Recovery Updates2 Comments

Friday was a hard day (well, it became two). I’m in early recovery from an anorexia relapse. There were CHAOS GREMLIN Biscoff binges and zero sleep—but also moments of clarity, love, bears, bath bombs, and reminders of why I’m still trying.

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