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If You Tolerate This, Then Your Children Will Be Next

On 20th Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Daily Prompt2 Comments

If you tolerate this, then your children will be next. Your mother does not love you, and she will not love your child either. This is the advice that would have changed so much for us had I heard it when I was a teenager.

Another Grief Therapy Session – Learning To Push My Rock Without Shame

On 19th Feb 202519th Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Grief Journey7 Comments

Grief therapy has made me realise how much I’ve hidden parts of myself out of fear. This week, I’m challenging that. I’m sharing my truth, sitting with my emotions, and letting people misunderstand me if they choose to. It’s time to stop being ashamed of my rock—one stone at a time.

My Son’s 20th Birthday – Brownies, Bears and Silently Battling My Depression.

On 17th Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Mental Health Advocacy2 Comments

My son’s 20th birthday was filled with brownies, Jellycat bears, and love — but also an exhausting battle with my depression. I gave everything I had to make his day special, even when my mind was fighting me every step of the way. He smiled all day. I just wish I could’ve felt it too.

Eating Disorders Are Not A Choice – No One Would Choose This

On 13th Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn eating disorder7 Comments

Eating disorders don’t check the calendar. They don’t pause, even for love. If love alone could cure eating disorders, having my son would have cured me. But this isn’t a choice. I want to celebrate his birthday fully, but instead, I’m bargaining with a mental illness that refuses to take a day off.

I Tried Having Less Hope At My Psychiatrist Appointment… And It Actually Worked.

On 11th Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn mental health1 Comment

I woke up in a panic, handled NHS frustrations better than usual, found comfort in Starbucks and plushies, and ended the day very on-brand with an existential crisis over my medication increase. Don’t know why I’m hoping—so fucking naive. Falling for the promise of the emptiness machine.

My First Grief Therapy Session Was Unexpectedly EVENTFUL

On 7th Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Grief Journey, mental health8 Comments

Imagine sitting in the metaphorical waiting room for therapy, convinced your name will never be called. Then suddenly, it is — and an hour later, you’ve had massive realisations about grief, silence, and finding yourself again. My first grief therapy session was unexpectedly eventful, and it’s just the beginning.

Escaping to My Animal Crossing Island, Because Everything Happens for a Raisin

On 5th Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Gaming4 Comments

Escaping to Seren felt like the only thing to do while waiting to see if my crumbling tooth situation could get any worse. The Roost was warm, the coffee pixelated but still comforting. I was alone—until my son arrived, bringing life to my island, and a much-needed distraction.

Stuck in Ambivalence: A Day in the Superposition of My Eating Disorder

On 3rd Feb 20253rd Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn eating disorder7 Comments

Ambivalence is a superposition—wanting and not wanting recovery at the same time. This is what living with an eating disorder looks like: battling decisions that shouldn’t be battles, facing Greggs like it’s a boss fight, and walking away from cheese like it’s a trap. Clippy wants control. But so do I.

A Surprise Meaningful Jellycat Haul – Gifted By Jellycat Themselves!

On 1st Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Memorable Days5 Comments

I never expected this. Jellycat reached out and sent me a surprise package—and not just a little keyring, but a full Jellycat haul! As someone who’s never been ‘picked’ for things, this meant more than just plushies. Here’s what they sent me—and why it mattered so much.

The Lights Still Visible In The Void – A Weekly Report From The Event Horizon

On 31st Jan 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Weekly Updates9 Comments

This week was chaos incarnate. I had MANY meltdowns, became an anti-capitalist hero via a magazine subscription app, my son delivered an epic BBC takedown, and I spent a lot of time hugging Jellycats—when they weren’t in quarantine. But somehow, I’m still here. And honestly? I’ll take that as a win.

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