Skip to content

Absurd Universe

Grief, ED recovery, Mental Health and all the lovely things that give my Sisyphean rock meaning

  • Home
  • About Me
  • Grief Journey
    • A Letter To My Best Friend – For the Anniversary of Your Death
    • I Tried Running from Grief — It Went Horribly, but I’d Do It All Over Again.
    • Grief Enters The Chat (And So Does My ED)
    • Grief Therapy Is Over – I Wish My Depression Was
  • Memorable Days
    • Frankie Frogs Birthday
    • I Bought Jellycats in Cardiff
    • My 41st Birthday
    • A Surprise Meaningful Jellycat Haul – Gifted By Jellycat Themselves!
  • Recovery Updates
    • Hardest to Be – My Anorexia Relapse at 40
    • AirlockED – A Metaphor For My ED
    • Opening the AirlockED Door – Facing Equilibrium
    • Recovery Update – The Hokey Cokey and The Return of the Chicken Shawarma
    • The Night We Ate – My Son Softens The Hard Edges of My Day.
    • Reaching My ED Goal Weight Didn’t Save Me.
    • ED Recovery Update – The Night of the Biscoff Weetabix
  • Mental Health Advocacy
    • Eating Disorders in Your 40s: What No One Talks About but Should

Tag: jellycat

Lights in the Dark – Cardiff, Coffee, and Cute Fluffy Bears

On 22nd Sep 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Memorable Days, Recovery UpdatesLeave a comment

A day in Cardiff with my son: blood tests, NHS rage, plushies, coffee, and the reminder that recovery — though exhausting — is worth it. We celebrated with bath bombs and bears, laughed at cathedral flats, and found light in the dark, together.

Little Lights in the Dark – Pigeons, Bows and Silver Linings

On 10th Aug 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Little lights in the dark, Recovery Updates2 Comments

Recovery has been chaos — crying, swelling, and thigh muscles outgrowing knee sleeves. But between the spirals, I found soft moments: plush pigeons, macramé bows, iced coffee with my son. Small, silly joys that felt like little lights in the dark. Somehow, they’ve been enough to keep me going.

The Softest Surprise For Bartholomew Bears Birthday (Gifted)

On 8th Jun 2025 By Absurd RhioIn plushies3 Comments

Bartholomew Bear Junior arrived during a rough week, and brought more comfort than I expected. A tiny bear with big softness, sent when I needed it most. I’m so grateful to Jellycat for the kindness - and to Biscoff, who’s learning how to be a big brother, crumbs and all.

The Joy Of Jellycats – Daily Prompt

On 24th May 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Daily Prompt, plushiesLeave a comment

Recovery didn’t bring joy rushing back. It brought pain. Grief. The feelings I ran from. But I keep going- eating, walking, packing a Jellycat - because I want to be here when joy returns. Not the muted kind, but real joy. The kind that stays. The kind that wraps me in fluffiness.

Somewhere Over the Enfys – The Arrival Of A Liberty Jellycat Bear

On 11th May 2025 By Absurd RhioIn plushies2 Comments

During one of the hardest weeks of my life, my son handed me a purple Liberty bag with a Jellycat bear inside. This is the story of Enfys — a rainbow in bear form — and how she reminded me I’m loved, even when I can’t feel it.

The Arrival of Biscoff… The Jellycat Bear

On 15th Apr 2025 By Absurd RhioIn plushiesLeave a comment

Biscoff the Bear has arrived, and frankly, he’s the best decision I’ve ever made mid-breakdown. He’s soft. He’s chonky. He’s emotionally supportive and doesn’t judge my reactive Biscoff binges. He even has his own jar. 10/10 life coach. Would cuddle again.

Wordless Wednesday – Babysitting A Cutie Patootie

On 2nd Apr 2025 By Absurd RhioIn wordless wednesday7 Comments

Every Tuesday, my son has a long day at university. While he’s off being brilliant, he leaves his Jellycat bear—Cutie Patootie—in my care for a bit of “bearsitting.” This post is full of adorable snapshots of me fulfilling my grandma duties to my son’s bear, complete with snacks, cuddles, and spoiling galore.

Little Lights in the Dark – Bears, Bows, and Hot Cross Buns

On 7th Mar 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Weekly Updates2 Comments

This week had its struggles, but there were little lights in the dark—small moments that kept me going. I made a macrame bow and bag for St David’s Day, filmed adorable TikToks with my bears, and challenged a cheesy hot cross bun. Oh, and I may have become a feral gherkin goblin.

A Surprise Meaningful Jellycat Haul – Gifted By Jellycat Themselves!

On 1st Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Memorable Days5 Comments

I never expected this. Jellycat reached out and sent me a surprise package—and not just a little keyring, but a full Jellycat haul! As someone who’s never been ‘picked’ for things, this meant more than just plushies. Here’s what they sent me—and why it mattered so much.

Psychiatrist Cancelled, I Cried, Then I Bought Jellycats in Cardiff

On 21st Dec 202419th Jan 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Memorable Days, mental healthLeave a comment

When my psychiatrist appointment was cancelled during a mental health crisis, I felt adrift. Instead of spiraling, I escaped to Cardiff—a place that usually feels like home. This is about frustration, yes, but also continuing to keep on keeping on when the system fails to show up.

Posts navigation

Older Posts

Grief blogging, ADHD chaos, ED recovery, and Cyberpunk 2077 outbursts. Sometimes Biscoff. Always feelings.

Follow Absurd Universe on WordPress.com

Top Posts & Pages

  • The Long Dark Christmas
    The Long Dark Christmas
  • The Flicker of Meaning
    The Flicker of Meaning
  • Collecting Psychiatrists Like Pokémon - and Arriving in Panic Station.
    Collecting Psychiatrists Like Pokémon - and Arriving in Panic Station.
  • Pretty Painful Grief Letters Review - The Book That Sits With You in Grief
    Pretty Painful Grief Letters Review - The Book That Sits With You in Grief
  • Objects in This Mirror May Appear More Healed Than They Are
    Objects in This Mirror May Appear More Healed Than They Are
  • The Lights Still Visible In The Void - A Weekly Report From The Event Horizon
    The Lights Still Visible In The Void - A Weekly Report From The Event Horizon
Blog at WordPress.com.
Absurd Universe
Blog at WordPress.com.
  • Subscribe Subscribed
    • Absurd Universe
    • Join 113 other subscribers.
    • Already have a WordPress.com account? Log in now.
    • Absurd Universe
    • Subscribe Subscribed
    • Sign up
    • Log in
    • Report this content
    • View site in Reader
    • Manage subscriptions
    • Collapse this bar
 

Loading Comments...