Grief, ED recovery, Mental Health and all the lovely things that give my Sisyphean rock meaning
Having my castle collapse — and now rebuilding it — is the metaphor I’m using for my eating disorder and my recovery from it. Being concise isn’t exactly my strong suit, probably thanks to ADHD — I could talk for Wales! So I thought my castle-building updates deserved their own space. These posts won’t follow …
Continue reading The Night We Met – Castle Building Update – 10 November
I went shopping in Marks & Spencer today with my teen. We were there to pick up some treats after our Specsavers adventure, and as I looked into the sandwich fridge through the crowd of work people frantically grabbing their meal-deal lunches, there it was — the Turkey Feast sandwich, in all its festive glory. …
Continue reading Be More Kind – Grief and The Battle of the Corporate Festive Sandwiches
The last time I went through eating disorder recovery, I blogged here on WordPress, and whenever I struggled, I’d write a post listing five reasons to keep going. Highlighting these reasons helped me remember, especially on the hardest days, why I needed to push forward. So, I’m bringing this series back. Here are my first …
This week, grab a coffee (or your favourite cosy drink) with me and join me for a week-in-review. From plushie adventures to moments of struggle, there’s a lot to share. Who's for some coffee frens? Wins of the Week This week, I added two new Jellycat plushies to my collection: Roxy and Ember, a fox …
Continue reading The Climb – Coffee, Castles and Cluster Headaches
I often get asked how I can take my plushies outside, beyond my castle walls, so openly as a 40-year-old. Given my chronic anxiety and self-consciousness, it’s a very valid question! I thought I’d share how I came to carry them so openly in public, why I do it, and maybe it will help you, …
Continue reading Brave – How I Take My Jellycat Plushies Out In Public
We have a brand new Jellycat friend in the Seren household, but before I properly introduce you to him, I’d like to introduce you to someone else: my dad. 2020 was the year my best friend, WeeGee, died. It was also the last time I saw my dad. He’s the most intelligent person I've ever …
Continue reading Ode to My Family – My Dad, and My New Jellycat Fox
Ever since I can remember, I've had this pathological compulsion for avoidance and escapism. I remember being a young school kid staring out of the bus window on the long freezing cold journeys to school in the winter, blasting "Muse - Newborn" from my CD Walkman, imagining that I was escaping, running away to never …
Continue reading Thoughts from the Moon – Escapism and Avoidance
It is COVID-19 booster season, and as much as I really appreciate that I can have one, I couldn't help but feel the vaccine left a bitter taste in my mouth - I mean this literally and metaphorically, it made me taste metal and alcohol all the live long day. It was one of those …
Continue reading Reignite – Brute Force and the Covid Booster.
Some of my Bartholomew Bears In my last post, Hardest to Be - My anorexia relapse at 40 I brought in a metaphor to describe my current mental health status. When I refer to my broken castle in this post, I’m talking about my ongoing anorexia relapse and the struggle with grief, my mental health, …
Continue reading Lean on Me – Jellycat Bears in Times of Crisis.
I explained in my previous post, "Here We Go", how I ended up relapsing from anorexia recovery after 12 years, but I made it sound far more simple than it actually was for the sake of brevity. Almost as if, the anniversary of WeeGee's death, who if you haven't read that post, was my best …
Absurd Universe 