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Strong Body, Broken Mirror: Recovering in a Muscular Frame

On 15th Jul 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Recovery UpdatesLeave a comment

I thought gaining muscle would make me feel strong. It didn’t—not like I expected. Instead, it cracked open questions about identity, womanhood, and trauma I didn’t know I was carrying. This isn’t just a post about thighs or weight gain. It’s about the weight of becoming someone new.

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