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If You Tolerate This, Then Your Children Will Be Next

On 20th Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Daily Prompt2 Comments

If you tolerate this, then your children will be next. Your mother does not love you, and she will not love your child either. This is the advice that would have changed so much for us had I heard it when I was a teenager.

A Letter To My Son – For Your 20th Birthday.

On 14th Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Memorable Days10 Comments

I can’t believe you’re 20. Two whole decades of you in my life, shaping me just as much as I’ve raised you. Watching you grow into your most authentic self has been the greatest privilege. No matter where life takes you, you’ll always have me, quantum entangled, forever

Escaping to My Animal Crossing Island, Because Everything Happens for a Raisin

On 5th Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Gaming4 Comments

Escaping to Seren felt like the only thing to do while waiting to see if my crumbling tooth situation could get any worse. The Roost was warm, the coffee pixelated but still comforting. I was alone—until my son arrived, bringing life to my island, and a much-needed distraction.

A Surprise Meaningful Jellycat Haul – Gifted By Jellycat Themselves!

On 1st Feb 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Memorable Days5 Comments

I never expected this. Jellycat reached out and sent me a surprise package—and not just a little keyring, but a full Jellycat haul! As someone who’s never been ‘picked’ for things, this meant more than just plushies. Here’s what they sent me—and why it mattered so much.

Bleaching My Sons Hair While Our Universe Succumbs to Maximum Entropy.

On 27th Jan 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Memorable DaysLeave a comment

When everything crumbled — blood tests, eating disorder relapse, endless chaos — I leaned into maximum entropy. Physics couldn’t fix it, but it made sense of the mess. So, while our universe succumbed to entropy, I bleached my son’s hair. Order emerged in the chaos, his hair flawless, my new Jellycat pig, Hamilton, watching.

I Tried Making Friends During Lockdown, Now I Have Pigeon Surveillance.

On 20th Jan 202520th Jan 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Pigeon Surveillance1 Comment

Squidgeon and Goose arrived in my life during a time when grief and isolation felt overwhelming. They perched on my windowsill, not just as birds, but as little carriers of hope. Through their antics, trust, and fluffy presence, they reminded me that even in loneliness, connection can unexpectedly find you.

I Tried Running from Grief — It Went Horribly, but I’d Do It All Over Again.

On 13th Jan 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Grief Journey1 Comment

Grief is a wave function. It runs in the background, unseen, until it collapses. I held mine off for years to be strong for my son. But after 2023, it caught up with me — and I’m still petrified. Grief, love, fear — it’s all tangled. And this isn’t even everything.

Frankie Frogs Birthday – Celebrating The Frog That Unexpectedly Changed Everything

On 9th Jan 202519th Jan 2025 By Absurd RhioIn Grief Journey, Memorable Days, mental healthLeave a comment

Frankie Frog, my son’s Build-a-Bear, became a harbinger of connection during a dark year of grief and relapse. We threw him a birthday party with cake, sandwiches, and Froggy wine. He’s more than a plushie — he’s comfort, chaos, and a reminder that love and joy persist, even through the fog.

The Love for my Son Transcends Space, Time… and the Black Hole of Depression.

On 12th Dec 2024 By Absurd RhioIn plushiesLeave a comment

These new Jellycats aren’t just adorable— they’re symbols of love, and the light my space baby brings even near the black hole of depression. From Sir Isaac pondering the gravity of peanuts to adorably caffeinated plushie coffees, they remind me that together, we transcend space, time, and darkness.

A Sea Of Love-ly Treasures – My Birthday Haul

On 22nd Nov 2024 By Absurd RhioIn Memorable Days3 Comments

Plushies have always been a love language for me, symbolising comfort, connection, and hope. From my son's Jellycat birthday cake to earrings that reflect my journey of healing, each gift tells a story of love and resilience. This birthday gift haul reminded me how deeply I’m seen, valued, and celebrated

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