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I Ate More and Accidentally Became Myself Again

On 30th Apr 2026 By Absurd RhioIn eating disorder, Recovery Updates4 Comments

I thought eating more would just mean gaining weight. Instead, everything came back - my energy, my thoughts, my emotions, and parts of myself I’d kept muted. It turns out you can maintain your weight and still be underfuelled, and fixing that doesn’t just change your body. It changes you.

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