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Tag: ambivalence in recovery

The Knee Sleeves and the Burning Building of Recovery

On 25th Feb 2026 By Absurd RhioIn eating disorder, Recovery Updates, trauma1 Comment

On my son’s birthday, my knee sleeves stopped fitting, and something inside me caught fire. Muscle I worked for felt like betrayal. Recovery stopped being theoretical and started burning. Ambivalence isn’t neutral ground - it’s standing in a doorway, one foot in the flames, afraid to move either way.

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